Random Shizz

So because I was pregnant for 9 mos and then didn't get old Aunt Flo back til December... I don't know but I'm wondering if getting my tubes tied made it a stronger experience? not to be gross -guys sorry - but DAMN! I have to stay on top of things or it's just not good. Then I wondered if it was just because I'm older and had 2 babies so things are heavier? Plus I tend to still FORGET to take care of business down there so that doesn't help. I just forget - after the initial 2 days of cramps and extreme bloat fun - that I have it.

I'm missing my other half big time. I cannot wait til he gets back from his trip. We've chatted with the kids on the video thingie on the macbook pro and that's good. I just miss my rock and back up. Lonely, I guess. Though I was so tired last night that I swear I don't remember my head hitting the pillow and I didn't wake til about 6 or so when Shea did. The first night I had a hard time sleeping. And I have a hard time getting myself off to bed alone.

My mum's surgery is scheduled for 4/28. All the sibs have been communicating more - which doesn't say much but still. The brothers are being more annoying since they are so removed that now when shit is going down they swoop in and question everything. I know my sister has a hardtime with it. She snapped at me this week and then apologized the next day. Which is fine because Saturday I unleashed a bunch of venting about my oldest brother on her and she was fine.

Saturday morning she and my niece Erin are picking me up to go for Erin's prom dress fitting. I had wanted to go for the dress shopping but they ended up going during the week last minute and didn't work out for me. But I'm excited to be part of something girly with them. I told my sister after I found out my second child was a boy that she needed to include me in these rites of passage girly type things because it's all I've got. Well at least until we shop for Rhena's wedding dress.... and the best part is not paying the bill. HA!

So I bought an entire new bedroom linens set. I'm pleased with it. Also curtains and some wall art. Hoping Dan can get those up soon. I don't do the walls stuff because he's anal about holes (ha ha anal about HOLES haha) in the wall and I just don't even want to deal with it.

Damn Shea is having another short nap day. Seems like he either has two solid nice naps or two crappy short ones. Doesn't help the mama get much done. Like blogging does either? HA.

A little of this

The Lime chicken came out pretty good. It was a bit tangy with the lime juice and the sauce was thin til it sat for a bit. Dan really liked it and had the leftover piece sliced in a salad last night.

It has been raining here all damn day. It snowed all night so Dan had to run the snowblower this morning. That means he didn't leave for work til 8:30 so he'll be late coming home tonight I'm sure. Plus with this weather will make his 30 minute ride even longer.

Totally glued on American Idol again. I don't really like the use of instruments... seems distracting to the people using them. There are already people annoying me. So..... it's GREAT.

The writers strike is apparently over so THANK GOD we'll get some new Office and Greys episodes soon. We've either been watching movies or web surfing at night. We are two dorks with two laptops sitting in the same room.

I have too much stuff for Liam for Valentine's Day. Again. I always overdo it. I think I still have some stuff in a bag from Christmas that I never gave him. Not big things. I will post a pic tomorrow of him with his little haul. Last night we put together his valentine's for his class. Cars Movie valentine's with a pencil. They don't let us send treats in or I would have gotten the ones that came with the gummy candy. I got Shea a couple of little toys more for Liam's benefit... so he could see that Seamus also gets something.

So today we had a playdate with Liam's friend Mikayla. They've been friends since they were about 5 and 6 months old. She can be a real pain in the ass but Liam loves her and I really like her mom. Who brings me mochas. Well not for that. Well maybe a little for that. And she's really good to my boys. The kids had fun with the valentine's foam stickers and hearts and stampers I got for some crafts time. I also made - for the first time ever - jello jigglers for a special snack. Mikayla is allergic to dairy, nuts, and eggs so it's always hard.. I can't just make cookies or a cake from my recipe box. The heart shaped jello was a hit though.

Working from my resolutions things are going ok... I working on some personal health things - being proactive. I'm losing weight - albeit slowly and mostly because of Lent! Honestly I hoped that the length of the Lenten season would help me get through the "Detox" time and create some new habits. That's not saying I'm not going to eat a pound of chocolate on Easter Sunday. AMEN!

Crappernuts I need to wake Liam or he'll never sleep tonight!

Random Boring Crapola

Shea was up 3-5am, so of course now he isn't into a morning nap. He's tired but doesn't want to be in his crib asleep. I know if I take them on a Starbucks drive thru run he will sleep for 10 mins in the car and call it even. NO WAY.

Ugh I wish he would just sleep through the night. Please. God. It used to be just the pacifier but now he doesn't even take it half the time. We tried letting him cry but he is still unable to calm himself to get to sleep. Every 2-3 nights he won't settle back to sleep til he's had a bottle.

So yesterday my doctor recommended 3-4 physical therapy sessions for my hand and feet and a podiatrist. I haven't made the appointments yet but I will. I am just unsure how they will fit in to my schedule and child care and all that fun stuff. The spot where I got the tetanus shot hurts like a bastard... actually my whole arm/shoulder area hurts. We are slightly upping my z-loft dose as well. Overall I'm in good health. The blood draw will tell more but my blood pressure, as always, was good.

Liam just had some M&Ms and offered me one. So sweet! But no sweet snacks. Bleh. Hope I can stick to my Lenten promise. The soda is more the one kicking me in the ass. I see the soda and want it. Bad.

I took some of the money my MIL gave me for Christmas and ordered myself a custom Starbucks gift card - I know it's retarded to order one for myself... but I like having the card because then I don't need to worry about having cash and there is something not right about putting $4.15 on a credit card. So I ordered a Starbucks custom card that has my preferred drink and my first name. I'll take a pic when it comes I should have taken a screen shot of the finished product...oh well. Woohoo!

Ok Shea is not happy in the Jumperoo and I suppose I should do something about that.

Aw crap

I'm an idiot. I was just about to start writing this post... some sort of deep and meaningful soul searching bullshit and I realized the time. YEAH. What the hell am I thinking? It's PAST 11 pm and my second born is SURE to start whimpering/crying for his pacifier soon. Which makes for a long friggin night and this time - the block from about 10pm - 2am is usually when I get my solid sleep in. I've read that getting 4 hours of consecutive sleep can keep someone from truly losing their mind. I believe I can attest to this on the day after a particularly bad night.

Shea has been better.. I'm trying to get him to do the 2 - 3 (or 2) - 4 schedule. Translation: wakes up in the morning then 2 hours later a nap - wakes from nap then 2-3 hours later another nap - and then after that nap - bedtime 4 hours later. That has helped because he's so damn tired by 6:30-7pm that he passes out cold, pacifier be damned... at least til about 4:30-5am. Which is AMAZING when you go from waking every 1-2 hours. The poor things teeth aren't helping though. I gave him some motrin or Tylenol before bed the past few nights. There is one that has cut through and I can feel the second one still under the gum. Both are the bottom front teeth. He hasn't been the most fun lately but he's still a good boy. When I go in to get him from his naps he is SO HAPPY to see me and I always pick him up and just hold him and hug him for a few beats before changing him. After me being a head case his first 5 months of life I am trying SO HARD to make sure he really feels safe and loved.

Now that I say that it probably sounds like he wasn't safe. He was. But I can say I had to put him down and walk away more than once to clear my head and pull my shit together. And I can say that I was impatient with him or Liam or NOTHING a lot and I know he picked up on that. Not the lovefest he deserves. But I am trying to make up for it. I still give him plenty of time to work on things himself...sitting, gross motor skills, etc, but any time I hold him I try to just POUR into him how much I love and adore him. That he is so loved and so badly wanted.

Liam loves Shea already so much. When he isn't with him, Liam misses Shea and he is always asking where Seamus is. The first thing he does when he comes downstairs after a nap (that is...if he woke up happy) is give Shea a hug and kiss. And when I pick him up from preschool he gets in the van and leans over, "Is Shea awake, Mama?"

Well I guess I am rambling and waxing poetic anyway... it's almost 11:30 I am so going to regret this in the morning. Dan is playing Madden on the PS3... he finally got it for himself. It looks crazy on the tv - like a real football game. In fact, in the game he is playing now - it is snowing. And he's always the Patriots. ALWAYS.

Ok I'm gonna get to going. Need to pop the happy pill and get to bed. Maybe Shea will whine once he hears me moving around up there and I can get the first re-pacification out of the way. Dan gets up with Shea a lot - I think because the happy pills make me drowsy so I don't always stir when Shea wakes. Seems like Dan is getting up more now that I'm on the pills.

Like I SAID.... GET TO GOING!

Whole Lotta Nothin

I just realized a week has past since my last post here - not that I'm really keeping track - just noticing that it is indicative of weeks that are busier than others. Between the snow dumping on Monday which kept Dan at home (and me needing to keep the kids out of his hair or quiet during a phone call), Tuesday was a school day, Wednesday we had Mikayla and Marianne over and now it's Thursday which is another school day.

School days fly by for me. I was really productive this week during Liam's 3 hours of school. I did some secret cleaning in the guest room closet. It was scary in there - blankets and drapes just thrown basically to get out of the way. This house kills me in some ways as it has loads of closet space yet the builder did not make any specific linen closets with multiple shelves? So Dan made one in the upstairs hallway but it's not big enough for everything. Actually I'm just still trying to figure out organizing multiple bathrooms and closets and all that crap.

My goal for this week is to make the house passable for anyone wanting to wander around on Sunday after Shea's baptism. Typically people don't go upstairs and if they do I close the door to my bedroom (where things go to die... or be put in storage boxes etc.).

Things around here are looking better... the new tv and console in the living room, the beginnings of the playroom storage already in place (just waiting for Pottery Barn to get off it's ass and get the rest in store for us), the new stools finally for the breakfast bar in the kitchen, putting the changing table in the first floor bathroom and removing the pack n' play changing table/bassinet from the living room, splitting Liam's furniture so he has the tall bureau and Shea has the changing table dresser, and getting the last of the stuff out of the garage and so both our cars fit in there. I am in search for a new area rug for the living room - the one we got "on sale" sheds like a BITCH! Worse than two dogs if you can believe it. And when we have playdates the kids get the stuff on their pants and of course it looks like dog hair and I KNOW that the moms think it's from the dogs. But no! It's the friggin rug!

I'm much more reticent here to put things up such as curtains or even blinds just to do it. My mom is like "When are you getting curtains up in the living room?" "When are you getting blinds for the guest room." Well Ma we aren't getting $5 blinds at Home Depot... our blinds are at least $100/window (except the boys rooms which we are using cheaper shades because Dan remembers yanking his off the window a few times aas a child and we aren't going there with $100 window treatments). I am not in any rush to hang shit up I guess. I guess maybe the living room looks a bit more stark without them... but I just want to get good quality stuff. And we aren't printing money over here so it's going to take a while. We've only had two overnight guests since we moved in and both got up before the sun anyway.

But I'm feeling good about where were are at with the house stuff. This summer will bring a shed, irrigation system and swingset/play structure. I really want some type of chaise for my bedroom and a leather club chair for the living room. Our couches will have to wait til the kids are bigger. We are also going to get a small pub table and stools for the eating area of the kitchen. But we are waiting til the right one comes up... haven't found the right one that will also fit in the smallish space.

Ok Hip Hop Harry (LAMEST SHOW EVER) is on and Shea will likely be awake soon so I need to get Liam's school clothes picked out and the house picked up a bit. Oh yeah and laundry flipped and dinner planned and...